Session is dead and done, and the immediate consequence should be a huge relief and some sort of feeling of a sealed deal. But what if it's not so? What if the stress and tension is what fuels us doesn't let us so comfortably go with the flow, but makes us come over ourselves - at least try so. The other issue is - for how long one (Calvanese's legacy :) can remain purposefully focused on this run of session obsession in a long run or on a single stretch of a day. How to escape deviation tries conducted by natural lazyness and unwillingness to push oneself? I must confess - I didn't come up with a solution - I hit my self off the track using the most foolish excuses, even more - when i didn't have one I lookedup for it. And the result regretufully is the one that I foresaw already a while ago. My everunderdetermined-me let me down again, and this time the hard way. After every single such occasion you think you learned a lesson and there is still space and time to make-it-better-next-time and that you'll be capable to come over yourself that time - the next time, ok - maybe. But what will happen when I'll start to preassume that it'll be all the same all over again, without any tries? Yeah that's no more "Houston, we have a problem" occasion, that's already the IT - GAME OVER!
No comments:
Post a Comment